Let's try this again

 I have thought about trying to write again for awhile but I just haven't been in the right mind set to give it a go, it's been so long since I have been here seems like years. I am struggling right now with depression and I am so exhausted all the time, but everyone now a days is struggling with something, especially with covid, I am terrified all the time, I go to get grocery's and when I get home I want to pour bleach all over me lol but I don't of course but don't think that I haven't thought about it. I try to keep my mind off of things but it's hard when all you hear or read is about the virus, everyone has an opinion but no one seems to know what the hell they are talking about, so I stay away from just about everyone. My husband just got out of the hospital because of pneumonia and a fungal infection in his lungs, was in there for a week, seemed like a lot longer but that's cause I was so full of anxiety having him gone, then he comes home and two days later we are pissing each other off hahahahahaha back to normal around here. So much has happened since I last wrote, maybe I will try and write it all down but for today I think this is a good start, sure hope everyone is doing well and staying safe, will try and come back tomorrow and write more and who knows maybe I will get back in the swing of things again till then  take care....