Depression sucks

Hi well It's been like forever since I have been here a lot has happened with me and the bunny's. This winter was very hard on all of us I lost 2 rabbit's Oscar died from nemonia and Bunbun passed from cancer, was very difficult on me to say the least.  This winter my depression got the best of me big time, I lost my job and almost lost me, I was a nanny for a family with 2 kids who I love with all my heart, not sure what started my depression to kick in but it seldom needs a reason, I started to have major panic attachs again and couldn't sleep, the damn voices started about a month into it, way to much to write here but I got to the point that I just didn't trust myself to be home alone, thank goodness I have the best hubby in the world and he did all he could do to make me feel human lol, I ended up having to adjust my pills was on 2 welbutrin pills a day then doc added another pill to stop the tremors and the voices but I should of waitted to see my own doc cause she put me on the wrong pills instead of lowering the anxiety it raised it big time, I couldn't leave my house was so bad. Went back to my doc and had pills changed was doing better then got shingles and found out that I am alergic to the new pills, so I am now only taking one welbutrin pill a day and a anti alergic med to stop the itching and pain, not sure what will happen from here on out but my depression is back under control and am feeling much better about things just crossing my fingers it stays this way cause I don't know were to go from here. I tell you though if I didn't have my hubby and my pets  I wouldn't  have a clue were I would be they kept me busy and when I felt really bad I just went and sat with the bunny's or the birds and the love they give me held me through the bad times. I still am not able to work full time yet I am working one day a week at Chevron and I love it would like to have more hours there, I would so like to work from home doing computer things but so many scams out there don't have a clue what to look for. Today I am cleaning the barn and getting ready to drop off a couple doves to there new home, also looking for a new home for my budgies but I am so picky that may be difficult lol, well not sure if anyone will read this but if you do hope you and your family are well....

Update On Candy and me

It's been a long time since I have been here, took me a long time to recover from Candy passing, she never got her fur back and after a while she had a hard time being on her feet without fur to protect her pads so my hubby and I had to face the fact that it was time for her to sleep in rest. I have tried to find info on what happened all the other rabbit's are just fine I think that Candy being an older rabbit just didn't have the strength to fight back anymore, looked all over the net but nothing the only thing I can think of is there was something in the hay that they shouldn't have had nothing else makes any sense. I miss her so much even though it has been a few months it still hurts but I have her tail from a fight she had long ago I hold it now and then just to make me smile cause I remember how tough she was and all the good times with her. In the last week I have been building another barn for the rabbit's I have 2 king canopy's put together to make a 14x24 area, I cut extra doors and windows and have sewn Velcro to close them all for the winter, this will be a great help I can have them all in the same area and they all can have room to run and play, also I will have room to store all my equipment and food so I don't have to carry it all around anymore. Will post a picture later today. So much has been going on it's been crazy for me to keep track of what I am doing day to day but work and my baby's help me get through the ruff times....

Still no answer

It has been awhile since I wrote feel like I am running in circles. Took Candy and Isacc back to the vets they did a scrapping again and also checked there ears, in the few day's between all this Jefferson who was the first rabbit to show this scabbing has started to grow his hair back and his ears are fine, he is having trouble walking with his back legs but that is due to his age I am sure, no other rabbit's have had hair loss or scabs even though Rudy was in the same cage as Jefferson and Marcus was with Candy they had nothing. Vet called  and nothing showed up on the tests no mites bugs bacteria nothing but dead hair and skin, so at this point we have no idea what it is, I am thinking it could be an allergy from something in the bedding hay, because I ran out of hay soon after it showed up and nothing got worse but a bit better all except Candy. My poor Candy has hair from the middle of her back to her bum that is just about all she has, nothing on her legs chest tummy neck even her face is bald I will post a picture to show, tonight I am on the fence as to weather I should let her keep fighting or let her go, she has a temp again and is having runny poop but eating and drinking very well and doesn't seem to hurt if I touch her or lift her up, I put veg oil all over her to soften her skin so it wouldn't crack and bleed that helped big time but in the next 3 days will tell if she is going to improve or? It will be so very hard for me to let her go but I love her to much to let her suffer. The vet said she is healthy other then the hair loss so not sure what to do, I wish she could talk and tell me what to do, for now I keep her in a warm room that is quiet lol she is actually in our spare bathroom because it is beside the heater and stays warm and having her there works cause my hubby checks on her all day long if I am at work and also because she is up on the counter the cat can't get to her. This winter has been hard on me and my baby's I have 4 rabbit's upstairs 2 males need to be fixed and have never been outside so I had to keep them in till spring and 2 fixed males that have very short hair and would not make it out in the barn all winter then I have Isacc and Candy downstairs, needless to say I am very much wanting this winter to end so I can have my craft room back..