I made it

Well I made it through yesterday ad was it ever a chore lol, I did spend most of the time laying around but early afternoon I went and got a bunch of fruit for us and a few extra things, a hundred bucks sure doesn't go very far I tell ya. I have been craving fruit for awhile so I decided to hell with it I am going to use some of my left over income tax and go buy whatever I want and I did lol, still didn't get as much as I wish I did but I just went to the wholesale cause I didn't feel like driving around and the prices in there are not very good right now should have gone to Walmart oh well I have what I want for the next couple weeks. I also found a can of pineapple juice for cheap so I got that for my pina colada's  can't spell oh well you get the drift lol, I got some ice cube trays from the dollar store that have rubber bottoms so you just push them up from the bottom when they are ready and pop they go, they only had 2 trays so I got both but I am going to keep an eye on them cause I want some more for sure. Today I made enough and gave some to Dean well I shouldn't have he wants more hahahahaha  I figure we can afford to make them cause I got the mix for a buck and the ice free and I paid under 2 bucks for the juice so bonus for sure, I think I am going to go buy 3 more cans and freeze the juice so it will last longer and will make the drink even thicker but have to wait for bigger trays for that. All day today I have been in and out of the house it's been kind of weird weather today sunny and warm then cloudy and cold almost rained and now it is cold again but the sun is trying to come out driving me crazy cause I have changed clothes 3 times lol, oh well I did manage to get my lawn cut and cleaned up a bit of the yard ate some walking onions while I worked lol, they are my favorite I could eat them all the time, this year I planted some garlic chives I can't wait to try them. I am sitting in my back yard on my little notebook what a life eh I worked for this short break but alas I have to go do dishes and make the bed since I washed the sheets so I will close, sure wish I could get some more followers but I guess no one wants to read my crap lol  oh well I didn't start this to become famous I figure as long as it is helping me and I am having fun I will keep writing about my boring life hahahahahaha    ttfn

Not such a great day

Well I wish I could say everything is great but not today, I have been having a hard time sleeping again and last night was horrible, I can't even say what time I finally got to sleep on the couch but this morning I woke up with a headache and stiff neck and my mouth feel like I need to scrap it off lol, you know when you feel like you have a layer of scum man I hate that, so first thing I took a pain killer and things have settled down a bit but I must say that I have the blues today, it's been awhile since I woke up and felt like this, it's one of those days when you know you are going to have to struggle through the day and probably not be happy with how you did but you have to fight and struggle through even though I would like to just curl up in bed and sleep the day away. I know it's going to be a crappy day because my hubby yelled at me from down stairs and says you see what time it is?  I'm like what the hell do I care what time it is piss off hahahahaha, some days I have such a poor attitude right from the second I wake up and for no good reason I know it's just my manic showing so I try to keep my mouth shut for fear of what will come out lol. This may sound silly to some but it's a colder day today looks like rain and a chill is in the air so I rushed to do a small load of laundry just so I could run the dryer hahahaha  I don't know why but the heat from the dryer makes my hands feel less sore, growing up I used to watch my mom do these wax treatments for her hands and every now and then she would let me join her for fun, well now that my hands are starting to curl and be sore on wet days like this I sure could use a wax treatment about now, I used to have a hand wax but I gave it to a friend cause I never used it might have to see if she isn't using it and get it back for days like this. Dean is making pancakes guess he got tired of waiting on me, today is not a day I can eat early just smelling it is making me feel ill but this to will pass. I have been trying very hard to keep stress down, been working in the garden and yard and I even read a book something I haven't done for about a year and for the most part I have done well but a few things have pushed there way into my life. There are a few things happening at our co-op that is very stressful and makes day to day things harder to deal with, when you are a person like me who can't stand anyone not liking me or don't want to hurt any ones feelings life can be difficult to say the least kind of the reason I do keep to myself a lot of the time, as I get older I have a harder time dealing with conflict and it effects me for a longer period of time, when you live in a place with 14 unit's close together of course there will be conflicts from time to time and even some as hard as they are for me to deal with end in a positive note in the end, sometimes just airing out junk is helpful, but when there is as I like to say to many cooks in the kitchen it can be maddening, frustrating and down right pissy to deal with, I never want to say anything to hurt anyone so I tend to keep quiet most of the time but there are times when I feel so passionately about a subject that I just have to speak up and right now I am going through just that kind of thing, there is a person I will not name but this person has sometimes a very strong personality and is in my opinion a bit overbearing at times and we tend to rut heads together from time to time but I found in the past few weeks that I have had to stand up for this person for the work being done for the co-op and being scrutinized by others for the work that has been done and because I felt strongly about my opinion some have said I am this persons advocate even though at times they have spoken some not so nice things about me, so right now I don't feel very grown up at all I feel like I am in pre school again picking which friend I want and which friend I will ignore for the week and at my age this frustrates me so much, I think I am most of the time able to carry myself with dignity and grace and feel pretty good at how I handle myself but in this last few weeks I feel like I am a grade teacher or a therapist trying to guide some adults from a immature place back to adult hood and it's exhausting hahahahahaha, So for today I think I will curl up with a book put on my warm slippers maybe have some hot tea heck I might even put some vics on just for the aroma effect and just hide in my own world for a few hours and be my own therapist for the day, yup that sounds like a terrific day now all I have to do is convince my hubby in to letting me get away with it hahahahaha well I can try nothing wrong with trying and who knows maybe I will get my way this time hahahahaha.

Sun shinning

I love days like this the sun is shinning and there is a small wind and it's not to hot the perfect day for a walk or doing what I did all morning I spent 4 hours cleaning my carport and had fun doing it, I know how crazy is that lol, we have a lot of Chinese elm trees on our property and they just finished a shed of all there little fricken seeds lol so I first vacuumed a bunch up with my wonderful shop vac then I switched to blow and blew the rest out, I know some will come back but for the time being I have a spectacular carport lol. Today I am going to Walmart for some cat food and some fruit and vegs for me and on the way home I am going to go get some ice for my pinacolada  okay can't spell it, got the mix from the dollar store and omg is it good, I don't put alcohol because I can't drink so I just put some with ice and fruit juice and it is wonderful, I haven't looked at how fattening it is I think I will just not peek and say I did and it is fine lol. I want to go to the store now but a friend might be coming to change our tires for me, we are so late this year I have decided I am getting a jack so I can do it myself I have done it myself a few times just wondering if my hands can handle the job any more oh well having a jack is still a good idea. Cleaned the barn also today gave the brats a bath sprayed the floor down and the rabbits made foot prints all over lol oh well at least I got rid of bird poop. This year I haven't had a visit from the deer yet I am expecting them any day there is about 10 of them that come and rest under our trees it's been nice to watch and see how much they have grown since I last seen them. I am going today to see if I can buy some hay for the brats there is a cow farmer accross the road from us he usually will give me a bunch for free and it will do in a pinch but I would rather get timothy for them, that reminds me I better go and search for some before I forget, I will go and enjoy this wonderful day....