I think I am okay

Hey all sorry I have been away for so long, I wish it was because of some exciting news but no, I am doing everything I can to get through this winter but today I had a bit of a break down that I have been expecting for a week now. I am not sleeping at night but I can sleep all day no problem,So I know a lot of my problem is lack of sleep, but a few things have piled on just to add to the list, we had a fire where I live and because of that the insurance is putting a new roof on our building, in the middle of winter they are putting a roof on so I have nowhere I can go to get away from the noise because I am unable to leave the house right now,wasn't so bad last week because they wern't working above me but the next few days will be replacing our side, so I have been stressed out about that plus today the electioneer came through to inspect our breaker and power lines, very nice guy's but because I am having a hard time right now it really pushed me over the edge. Hubby is having a hard time at work right now also so that is added stress, it's just been a hard day and I am so glad it is over I just hope I can get to sleep. Cali our new cat is doing very well, she is attached to my hubby's hip it's so cute she just adores him and has got him wrapped already. Every critter is ready to go back outside they have had enough of being in and I can't blame them but will be a while yet before they will go out to the barn. Well I am going to stop there because I am actually very tired after all the panic attacks and tremors it's been a long day, let's hope tomorrow I can get back on track cause I miss writing.... 

Happy New year

🎇 Happy New Year Everyone

Well I didn't manage to stay awake of course but I woke back up at 12:30 so I kind of made it lol. Not a big deal to me hubby had to work all this holiday we didn't have Xmas again I didn't even decorate I just wasn't in the mood for anything, oh well maybe next year but I doubt it haven't had Xmas for about 6 years now well we do get some gifts given to us but we haven't spent money on each other for years, we wait till the income tax comes and then we get to buy our gifts, and this year will be the year I finally get a new computer and I can't wait, that is the first thing on the list for us and I am not passing it up another year that is for sure. Our cat had more fun lat night then anyone she was playing hard till about 1 am then she finally laid down and slept for a bit till round two started. Everyone else the rabbit's and birds slept through it the party poopers hahahahaha. I had a long chat with my brother on the phone that was great he was in a good mood and we chatted a long time, nice to catch up with everything. Today is cleaning day I am getting a late start of it my plan is to fix the animals door so it can be open to get air through but so the cat can't get into the room, not sure how I am going to do that as of yet, I have an older door I might just cut the top off of it will see when I get outside if I can figure it out, I will have to cut it by hand cause my table saw is all packed away for the winter. I really need to cut my hair also but not sure I feel up to doing that today, I had my hubby cut about three inches off a couple months ago and it is right back to were it was again and I hate catching it on everything but I am planing on getting a perm and streaks done soon this will probably be the last perm I will ever have because I will be cutting it short again, will see I may just get it cut and streaked if I can have a good cut my waves will kick in, pretty sure I will have to cut the length off cause I am getting to old for long hair lol. Well I better start my day going, I want to go to the dollar store but I am sure it will be closed today so maybe tomorrow, GST comes soon so I can get caught up on all the animal feed for the next three months that always makes me feel good, well I don't need bird feed I have enough of that for probably another six to eight months so I can take there money and hit the dollar store lol, that's my excitement for the year lol.

Early Christmas Present

Okay I have a retraction to write, after our last cat T.T. passed away from cancer I said that we would never have a cat again, for more then one reason, expense, vet bills, and litter box. Well guess what we got for Xmas

Her name is Cali, she is a Mexican cat lol well to say she came from Mexico, you see a friend of mine who comes home for summer and spends her winters at Mexico came home with her on her last trip and she asked if we would like to keep her because she didn't want to make her travel back if she didn't have to and of course after meeting her and having her come for a day visit to see how she does here we decided to add her to our family. M was a bit worried about her bonding with my hubby, I think it went well considering she slept with him on the floor for a nap the next day, she follows him around as well as me and talks and talks and talks lol. I have to say I am very happy to have her with us, I forgot what it is like to have a cat around, I have to learn all this stuff again like how to walk so I don't step on her, hid my treats so she can't chew on the bags, find a place for the litter so it is not in the hallway, there is nothing worse then getting out of a shower and walking across a littered floor, yuck, but most of all I forgot what it is like to have a kitten, she is only a year and her play time is at 3am, hubby sleeps through her stomping around and chasing her toys I have no idea how. Oh and of course there is the fact that she can get to places that I didn't think she would, like the top of my office wall, there is about a two feet gap from wall to ceiling and she managed to jump up there, her favorite spot is above the closet  lol  I don't mind keeps her busy and off my key board. I haven't let her meet the birds or the rabbit's as of yet, think we will put that off for as long as I can, so far she sits outside the door and just listens but I think she will be very excited to see the birds. She is an indoor cat but next summer I think I will let her in the back yard if I am there to watch. As for the rest of what is going on here, I am struggling with my anxiety but seem to have more good days then bad so very happy about that. We still don't have any snow it tried but didn't last, was hoping to have a white Xmas, sure hope it snows soon or we will not have any water for our gardens next summer plus we need it to get cold to kill off the bugs, I have put it out to the universe and mother nature to get off there butt's so we will see, even if it just stays for a couple weeks that would be great, will keep my fingers crossed.....