We had a Fire

So a lot of stuff has been going on but the big stress was we had a fire in the co-op, thankfully no one got hurt but the unit was gutted. I was just getting into a shower and some one was banging on our door yelling and my hubby ignored it and thought it was a bunch of kids, so I opened the door and looked there was nothing and I thought what the hell so I went and looked out the back door and then I heard everyone yelling fire, so here I am in my housecoat and I ran out and grab the hose and try and help the other lady who had another hose but it was doing nothing the fire was to far gone, then I realized it was heading towards my place and my hubby and birds were still in the house so I ran home and told him to help me get dressed and take the birds out. As you can imagine I was in a panic I knew I had to get dressed but I couldn't figure out what to put on and seeing smoke start to come in at the top of our wall made it worse, but we managed to get out with the birds and moved our car across the lot so I could sit in it cause I was in no shape to walk around, I was so scared and so upset. Everyone was safe and thankfully the fire stayed in the unit so we just had some smoke damage being we were 2 doors away but our next door neighbor had very strong smoke damage and of course there is no coverage for smoke damage. It's been a couple weeks and we still have a smell in our bedroom but if we keep the windows open that helps a lot. I feel so bad for the people in that unit it just went up so fast even though the fire truck was here right away, they said thank goodness we have fire walls between each unit that's what kept the fire to that unit.  This is the second fire we have had the first one happened 4 years and 4 days  from this one. Just after the fire we found out my hubby has diabetes type 2, so he is on pills and has to check his blood and of course change his diet. I am doing what I can to help him but I can only do so much the rest is up to him. The morning after the fire we also found out one of our neighbors relative passed away so you can imagine how sad it has been. The night of the fire all the co-op got together and had KFC and drinks and just sat around and talked some of them were outside till way into the night, I had to come home by 10pm I was exhausted and still had to set up a bed for us to sleep in cause we couldn't sleep in our room, but it was such a good idea to sit with everyone and just talk be support for each other, this we haven't done for a few years. Was kind of funny cause we had a small camp fire we sat around and the security guy came and sat with us, we thought the camp fire had been lifted but I guess it hadn't but we had a hose and 2 fire extinguishers so they let us keep it small. Everyone was laughing at me cause I don't drink so I went home and grabbed my big milk jug of peach tea, they kept asking if it was moonshine hahahahaha.
Whats so sad is that unit just got a new roof windows and doors but all that will get fixed with insurance, they haven't said how the fire started but the only thing that was in the corner was a lamp so maybe the dog bumped it, not sure will find out when they have wrote up the report. But the main thing is we all were okay the rest is replaceable.  

It's raining

It's raining again not a lot but still raining, so happy we have had all our windows open and doors the house is smelling so good right now, only thing is I am cold hahahahaha but that is okay I can put a sweater on just so good to not smell strong smoke. All the kids are outside playing sounds so good to hear them having fun again. I haven't checked on the fires today I just don't feel like I could handle disappointment today so I will just be happy with the rain and hope it has helped. Today I slept in again not happy with this not sleeping crap so I have started back on my sleeping pills for the next month, I have to my thinking and walking well basically everything is messed up from lack of sleep so it is time to kick it in the ass, I need to get it under control so I can enjoy what the rest of summer has to give before winter kicks in and then I have to start fighting my way through winter blues but this year I have a plan I am going to turn on my mood light early this winter and I am also back on my vitamins plus our house is going to go through a huge change in diet because my hubby just found out he is diabetic, we go to the doctor next Wed to find out what we have to change in his diet. I will say that I am so proud of him already because he has cut himself down from almost 3l of coke pop to a small bottle of diet coke a day, so he has been amazing, there is half a regular coke in the fridge and he hasn't touched it, I think this scared him big time and although I wouldn't wish this scare on anyone I am also glad because he has changed his attitude and has been so much nicer and pleasant to be around, I am sure that also has to do with him going back on his mood pills and blood pressure pills, couldn't have happened at a better time I tell ya. Today I had a can of salmon with a bit of salt and pepper on crackers and it was so good but I am having a lot of taste back but not to bad, it's been so many years that I haven't been able to eat tuna or salmon because it just tasted like tin to me but since I have changed my diet so much and also changed my shampoo to the no sulfur kind I have been able to eat it, that is a good thing because hubby also loves tuna not so much salmon because he doesn't like the bones but he loves tuna on a salad or in a bun so we will be eating fish again more and I am very happy about that I have missed it so much. All my animals are having such a good day I can hear them running around in the barn and the doves are singing, my neighbors chickens are singing and even the cows across the street are mooing lol what a little rain does is amazing. I think I am going to get some socks on and runners and go for a walk a bout, enjoy being outside without fighting to breath. Hope this rain keeps coming and everyone is safe, thinking of everyone who is in the area of the hurricane be safe and sound......

Where the hell have I been you say?

Hey I wish I had a good excuse but you know what I fricken don't, life has been a bit crazy and I burt myself out for a bit but I think I have my crap back together lol. This summer has been damn hot for me and so full of smoke I can't handle this crap anymore. I am so emotionally drained from all the people that have lost there homes from the fires, I have had to turn off the news and stop reading, it's not that I have decided to end my humanity about it no not at all but this girl is no help to anyone if every day is so overwhelmingly filled with emotion and sadness, so I have taken a break, time to get myself back in order cause summer isn't over yet and I hate to say it but there could be more fires started and closer to home before this season is over. It hasn't all been doom and gloom around here, some very exciting things have happened, and this is the main reason I have been so busy is the co-op just had all our windows and doors replaced and OMG they are fantastic.

Such an amazing job they did, my place is so much brighter and looks way better so much so that I am now ready to paint. was a lot of work though moving everything in every room and removing and replacing all the curtain rods, not to mention moving all my big planters back in there space but I am almost done with that part and on to the next reno. Since we stayed on budget with the windows we are now getting the siding and stucco done, we hope to have part of it done before winter. Then the real fun starts because if we can stay on budget for that job I will be having panic issues and so much stress coming out my yinyang lol, because everyone who still has the old rugs in there place will get new flooring  aaaaccccchhhhhhhh. I am so excited but I am also exhausted just thinking about all the work I will have to do to move all our things upstairs into our spare space, everything will have to be packed and put away and I am having a racing heart just thinking about it so will stop and move on from that hahahahahaha.  So you see I haven't been on a vacation and living it up lol I wish.  I am still letting the rabbit's out of the barn to run the yard and they are loving it and so am I makes me smile every time to see Sam run so fast across the grass,. He has finally gotten used to the feel of the grass. Let's see what else oh I have trapped and caught about a dozen mice in the house, there must have been a pregnant mom that came in cause most of them were very young but I think I have gotten them all so far. I decided to put some bait out in my shed because my yard has been over run by them now that they have chicken feed right next door, I got some bait of Ebay and used that within a week, then I got thinking and looked up a homemade bait and found one that is working like a hot damn and all it is  aspartame and potato flakes, that's all, they eat it and drink and swell, kind of a sad thing to do but when you have literally hundreds running around it is time to get rid of some cause they are all going to want to come in for winter, so far I have found about 20 around the yard and I know there are some under the barn cause I can smell them, so my yard smells a bit oogy right now but that will end as soon as they dry up. I am considering moving the barn for next summer so I can plant a veg garden were they are but that will be such a huge job and I am for sure not going to do it alone I am way to old for doing all that now. Sooooo that has been my life for the last few months, for the next while I have a breather so might be able to write more often again, I miss writing even if it is just for me to read lol. Anyone who reads this good health and my prayers go out to all dealing with the fires and smoke, stay safe.....