Damn Snow

I am so fricken mad, it's still snowing, to be honest I know there is so much more to come before the end of this season but as hard as I try everytime it stars up again all I can do is cry. This winter has been not bad really my moods have stayed fairly good oh sure had some nad days but managed to pick myself up again but I am at my wits end I think, I am trying really I am, pushing and pushing through till spring but today I had enough and my temper got the best of me. The stupid thing is I can look out my back door and it looks so pretty and wonderful and then if I look out my front door I hate it cause that is were our car is, the driveway and the main road and it just makes me feel so angry because it means I am stuck at home in the house again till it clears up and I am so sick of not being able to drive even to the dollar store lol. Tonight I am sitting here watching a show and had to turn it all off cause I don't feel like enjoying myself when all I want to do is get out in my yard, clean it up, get ready for the spring but then it goes and snows more. Tomorrow I am going to see if I can start to declutter my office and get rid of some stuff, maybe if I pretend that spring is coming I will keep my moods going but it's going to take a lot to fool myself cause I can feel myself already seeping down into a bad mood but tomorrow is another day as they say, I just keep saying to myself, just one more month just hang on for another month, I know I will get through it, I have no choice, but sure would be nice if  winter said goodbye till next winter. I think what is making it hard now is all the animals want out, they are sick of being in the house also, so I feel bad for them, so darn it bring on the spring it couldn't come fast enough for all of us.....

It's Friday lol

Hello worldit is Friday which means nothing to me hahahahahaha, I am feeling better today had a very bad time of it the last 3 days because my body seems to think that I don't need blood and iron lol I tell ya I can not wait till I am over this period shit, every 3 months is a bad one that kicks me on my ass and takes me 3 days to get over, in a way it's okay cause I get to kick back and just sleep and relax but would be much better if it wasn't with horrible cramps and so much blood damn it lol, oh well what can you do but keep trucking on. So our new cat has taken over the house completely she is crazy at least 3 times a day she goes batty and chases every shadow she can find, it's funny as heck till about 3am when she decides that it is play time and I want to sleep. Today I was going to go to the dollar store but I think I will wait another day to recover plus I don't have much money right now, so that sucks, can't wait to do income tax again, sure hope the stupid disability tax is fixed for this year, I swear it has taken them about 7 months to give me an answer, first they want more info and now it is being processed again, at least if it goes through I can back track for the last year and add to this one. I have some idea's for today I want to get everyone ready to move back outside soon, so getting there extra food and stuff moved back down stairs to move outside, this winter worked out so much better for me because I put shavings on the bottom then a deep layer of paper and more shavings on top and had no smell at all, I need to look and see if I can find some straw for the spring and some hay, not going to get the same hay again they don't like it because it is to ridged and thick, so still have a bit of hay left but think I will just use it as bedding or give to the deer. I am starting to want to spring clean again last year I got rid of loads of stuff and this year I am going to do the same cause I just don't need all this stuff laying around, I have a table and a couple chairs I am going to put in the carport again this year, makes it so nice to be able to sit out there in the evening, I have a bench also now but might move that to my back yard, will see. I have a huge amount of stuff to move off the porch to take to the dump, not sure yet how I am going to do that might have to pay my neighbor to help me with his truck, still waiting for the rabbit hutch to show up, hope she hasn't changed her mind cause I think it will be a great play area for Cali to go in so she can be outside and also be safe, I have to get some more wood to add to the run and more wire so think I will get that with income tax good thing we can do ours early this year cause I can't wait to get started on it. I have a few plans in mind for a herb garden, I got these folding doors given to me and I want to make them into a room divider and then attach baskets to them and put herbs just not sure if it will work or if I should just get rid of them all, I did get a few new doors for our place also that I need to hang and replace the ones that are broken and have holes, so that is my first project for spring as soon as I get the other crap out of the way in the porch so I can bring them out. I am thinking of making a special door for the animal room also so that it will keep the cat out of the room but still give them more air movement, I figure I will cut a hole in one door and put wire across and put the part I cut out on hinges so if they get to noisy I can still close the door off part of the day, well that is the plan will see how it actually goes, I am going to build something or use my big shelves to move my love bird and finch up high in the room for the summer so it won't matter if she goes in there she won't be able to get to them, I may even just put some shelves on the wall and put them up that way, I have the wood and actually that sounds like a good idea I could also hang them from the ceiling, I'm not sure as of yet what will work the best, as soon as the rabbit's and doves are back outside I can figure it out. This time of the year I get so excited but I am not moving them out till I am sure the weather is going to be good cause I don't want to put plastic around the barn again such a pain in the butt. I am really thinking about taking down the big barn and making it smaller or giving it away to the sanctuary to use if she want's it, with just having the 2 rabbit's now I don't need such a big space for them plus they run the yard most of the time, would be nice to have a bit more of my yard again we will see just how much energy and what I can afford to do, if I can find a free shed again that would be perfect, I can move it to the back of my yard again and then have the big area to put my veg garden in. So big plans to think about might have to sit down and make a plan up so I don't over do it cause I am not as young anymore and not as easy to build all this stuff anymore lol, bring on the spring cause I can't wait.....